So yeah, relationships are fucking everywhere. We are bombarded with them and wallow in our own inadiquecy before them. There are the real ones you know, the people whos idealised facade you mainly see that you secretly know has a good chance of not actually being a facade and them being genuinely happy. Our image of these relationships is in turn warped by all the fictional ones or idelaised ones we are bombarded with. One man, one Woman, in the whole universe there is one person out there for you. This is how it works, you will search for this person and may or may not find them (don't worry if you don't find them im sure you will become some endering silver haird novelist or some other varient on the "content but alone" formula) but chances are fate will bring you together. Who would have thought it? It must be fate to feel like this. There is a path set in stone by the unyeilding power of love and by god you are going to tread it. You going to read the fuck out of it and be disgustingly happy for the rest of your days.
And If you fuck it up its totally over. Your in doomed romance territory looking wistfully of a hilltop or some shit, destined to regret not being that bit more perfect or that bit more like they wanted you to be. You have commited a cardinal sin, you have both defied and missed out on fate and since it was a 'destined' deal you must really have scewred the pooch. You are so bad at relationships you have bent the universe to the point that fatr has said "Well fuck this" and taken a piss on you for being such a terrible human being. You deserve this and you will never find love again. One shot and you blew it.
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Of course this is all unfathomable shite. You may be able to enjoy the company of many different people and some of those people would be very compatible people with you if you gave it a shot. If it fails to work out try and get out with some degree of dignity (this will be useful later), use what you have learned from the whole affair nd grow past it. Let go of the needless bad feelings and keep the ones you learn from. You are an adult and life is waht you choose to make of it and if you're not then you have even more reason not to blame yourself, there is still plenty of time to grow.
Desipte my tone im not really a cynic, more posing as one as not to look like a gulable fool. Relationships can work out, im not going to give you the movie speech of "Long shot... Percentages.... blah blah affirming blah". You are proably reading this thinking i've just gone through a rough break-up. You would be wrong. Im just a haunted man who can outrun his ghosts (to quote what im listening to) and like all good givers of advice it is more "Aspirational" for me as well than anything. I guess you would call me a hopeless romantic, the well meaning sensitive loner type. I did do some soul searching a few months back, what i leanred is that i am a well meaning person, sometimes to a fault, i have a lot to learn. One thing i have learned is that relationships are truely two sided. They have to be strong on both sides to work, it takes one side to end, two to maintain if you follow me jibbering. Seems obvious but it would suprise you. I learned that i can try as hard as possible, make the utterly perfect moves and have hings fall apart through no fault of my own. Yep folks, shocker, i think it was the other sides fault! (oh my!) To be honest circumstances have consipred to make me look like a saint, if you know the circumstances (which you never will) you would probably agree. I know i sound like a self righteous prick but i can but tell the truth.
If you are having trouble following this then it is understandable, i barely do. Relationships are like that, they are hard to put into words and events tkae on a life of their own. Which is why the fiction we are pumped full of about them is so damaging.
Coming up in Part 3. Blame Ben Affleck!
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